on Wednesday, September 10, 2008 10:54 PM
Go ahead and read it.
But.
Dun critisise.
Today is seriously a fucking bad day.
Shit this.
First, I overslept as usual.
Next, that fucking bus didn't want to come.
I swear I will make a complain once my patience runs out.
So I had to take 30.
I dunno what kind of old and under maintained bus was it.
It almost broke down on the way.
Restarting its engine numerous times.
Then we had to change a bus to get to school.
And none of the bus was ever willing to come.
And damn it. For being that squeezy and time-consuming.
I guess I had better be thankful that I was not late.
And god damn it.
Of all the days, I had to have stomach cramps for the whole day.
And morning exercise was totally killing me.
And I had to go and search for people all around.
I praise myself for having medicine.
And luckily the pain went off a little.
But still, remained with me the whole day.
And I tell you.
I didn't have to give a damn about that thing.
Mind you, I was seriously good enough to have helped.
It was definitely not my forte.
And its not about you all.
Its about YOU that I'm freaking disgusted by.
You didn't have to care.
Nobody said you needed.
Well. Say that I'm extra and was just looking for trouble.
I knew very well what I did right and what I did wrong.
You didn't have to do that right in front of so many people.
I gave you a reasonable and valid reason for not doing so.
But what shit did you give me?
You better be thankful I dint hurl vulgarities at you.
We are just so different.
What I heard was practically like dropping a stone on me.
It hurt me.
But what could I do?
I'm just stupid.
I know it cannot be forced.
So I know.
The best is as simple as saying goodbye.
And thats it for now.
And seriously just fuck this hell.
Got dc-ed from MSN. And I dunno what on earth is wrong.
It doesn't allow me to get signed in again.
Fine!
My com's lagging like some idiot.
I should just go and sleep.
My bro is pissing me off like nobody's business.
I play games, he wants to see.
He's not supposed to watch tv, he wants to.
Ask him to sleep, he says he's not tired.
Then go and DIE!
And its terrible that he pisses me off but I cant scream vulgarities.
Tell me. What luck have I got?
When I dun cry,
it doesn't mean that I'm not sad.
Maybe I'm just too strong.
And the feeling bottles up inside.
Good thing is, I dun emo.
But the feeling just remains as sucky as ever.
And why on earth must I see 11.11 now?
I bet my phone's the next to give me trouble.
It dropped twice yesterday.
Just die.
I haven done any homework.
Mind you.
I'm the next one to get into trouble too.
I haven brought home my books.
I dunno what's in my brain.
Perhaps I should just go to hell.Labels: I would rather take a gun and shoot myself dead when everything goes against me
SHERMIN