SHERMEEN :D

on Wednesday, September 3, 2008 10:11 PM

I'm lazy to upload the photos.
So yah.
Tired ar...

Morning headed to mac to meet Manda and Zl at around 8.30am.
BUT...
Miss Amanda Goh dun want to wake up,
so Zl came to meet me first.

And we ended up playing stress.
Damn fun!
And I'm so sorry to Line and Derick for pangseh-ing!
And you 2 had to specially come down to mac!
D:

Then we started to play blackjack.
Lolol.
And then Sam and Chinken joined us.
Followed by Miss Amanda who finally woke up after I dunno how many hours.

Played a few more rounds, then headed to school for Physics at 11.30am.
So I was stuck in mac for 3 hours! o.o
We were singing on our way all the way to school.
Fun fun fun!

Nothing much to talk about physics.
After lesson, went to City Hall with Ahgwee, Line, Zl and Derick.
Went to collect Line's BIMBO pencil case.
Lol.
Then headed to the the HK cafe which Line likes a lot and we ate there.
And I'm officially broke. AGAIN. yes.
Then we went to Mac.
And we saw Jansen and people.
Had ice cream which was totally yucky.
Its like so watery and eeew.

Walked around and yah. Line needed to rush home.
So she and Derick mrt-ed back,
while me, Ahgwee and Zl bused 16 home.

I am sorry but...
I guess I'm not prepared yet.

I am not able to give up yet.
I dunno why I'm still holding on to that past, and...
I know the end means the end.
I doubt nothing can bring you back again.
I know it was all my fault.
I screwed everything up, and yet, now...
I dun have that courage to do anything or to try at all.
I only hope for that miracle to happen but...
I guess its just my own wishful thinking.
I heard many things, hoped that things were not like that at all,
I guessed many things, hoped that things could be the way I wished it would be,
I know the best is to forget you cos
I doubt you feel the same way as I do.
I told myself it was not worth it right at the end, but...
I just refuse to let go.
I know I'm stupid.
I feel so afraid right now.
I dunno how long I will be like this.
I have never been this way before.
I wished that this never happened before.
I wished things were never like this before.
I wish that things were just the same as it was before.
I wish but I know everything will never happen anymore.
I see you like as if nothing happened before.
I see you like as if you were just a friend before.
I see you like as if you have never stepped into my life before.
I hate this.

Now...
I cant bring myself into this.
I hope time can bring answers to me.
And somehow things will be different then.
But not now as you wish for it to be.

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