on Tuesday, February 3, 2009 9:38 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI JIE KOR!BIG KAYPO! =pSomehow, I find studying pretty fun now.But, I know that there are consequences for me to bear.I believe many are saying that I'm changing.
I wouldn't deny that, But what I can say now is that, I'm not sure if I'm feeling the o levels jittery or what,Just one thing I'm sure of is that I'm tired of handling relationships.It's just emotionally tiring for me.That's why I seem to be shuting myself out, becoming one of those anti social people who just sits there most of the time, stop hanging out with the usual clique... Just leaving myself out of everything that seems fun.I know I'm being pretty selfish. But I'm sorry. I guess this is the way adults want it to be.I really hate it when I'm being pressurized by everyone - parents, teachers, teach me or not.It's tiring. It makes me feel as though I'm gonna run each time. So, stop pressing me. I am really trying my best.I feel the difference in me. Don't expect me to change into a completely new person overnight.I was never once that hardworking kind, mugging my ass off like nothing.
But at least I'm trying yah?Don't use that kind of tactics that make me feel guilty, cos making me admit it won't really change a thing. Who knows, I may only become more demoralised.I'm thankful that at least mummy recognise my efforts now. At least the nagging is reduced.Labels: expect the change?
SHERMIN