on Thursday, May 14, 2009 9:47 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIEN NEE &HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIU WEN!!!♥I HATE CRAMPS!Pretty confident about today's English oral heh. I hope.Got Mrs Ezekiel. Don't know much about her. But I know I talked a lot a lot a lot. Until I found myself at a lost of words and she still wanted me to continue cos she said she was listening.Of course, I wasn't just going to say "Oh I have nothing more to say."I'll kill myself and die.I've just made myself promise myself that I'll really really really get serious.I shall NOT go out after school (other than makan and some exceptional cases which I'll consider what), and I SHALL and MUST mug mug mug.Be it to sacrifice movies (which I have already done for many many months), or to sacrifice company.I'd rather stay in school or at home, even if I'm doing nothing. This beats feeling guilty when I go out spending my money and time aimlessly. Writing a few words is still better than none.I am not saying that I dislike company.I know I'm selfish. But I don't wanna let myself and everyone down. I'm just feeling afraid and insecure.I don't want to end up passing only my english for O levels. I'LL CRY AND DIE.Say whatever you want, think whatever you want. I shall be ME when I want to.I think the anger within me is building up, accumulating every moment, increasing tension.I'm not obligated to, neither am I willing to compromise just as yet.Accept it or not, your choice!Labels: Isolation
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