on Saturday, February 28, 2009 7:22 PM
15 hours of sleep ytd!From 5.30pm ytd to 8.30am today! :DAfter many many days of waking up at 4+ am.Wanted to ignore phone calls, had many missed calls, didn't reply smses, skipped dinner, no teevee, SLEEP~Study date today!Hope something did went in.But didn't really do much. So gotta mug again tonight.Cos shopping tomorrow~ Don't think gonna have much time to get into my books.Shermin! Come on! PRIORITISE!:DLabels: i thought so
on Thursday, February 26, 2009 8:32 PM
2 papers today.I was rather satisfied with English.But not so for SS, especially SBQ. Ah forget it.Maths is killing me. Hohoho.Please hope that I have enough time to finish my chinese paper tomorrow.Who on earth can do 1 综合填空，2 理解问答 (1 MCQ, 1 open ended)，1 长文缩短 in 50 minutes?!I really really dun wanna dislike Chinese.Labels: ding dong
on Wednesday, February 25, 2009 9:58 PM
Study date at Ahgwee's house = productive!I memorised my Social Studies essay points! YAY!Reasons for war: Historical resentment, territorial conflict, conflict over oilImpact of war: Impact on Kuwait, Impact on Iraq, Impact in regional and internationalEVERYONE JIAYOU FOR COMMON TEST TOMORROW!Got scolded again today. Oh well.There was a rainbow. And a double rainbow at that.
Everyone was looking. Everyone was so excited.
But only me. I didn't look up. I couldn't see.
It made me realise.
I'm hanging my head down. So different from the others.
Do you feel what I feel?
Labels: a dosage of euthanasia
on Tuesday, February 24, 2009 8:36 PM
Runny nose. Pain pain throat. Dying.Proposal rejected once again. To hell with it.Waking up at 4+ every morning. What the hell is wrong.Common test in 2 days time. You pray, I pray. I think. 神仙都救不了我了.Labels: no more
on Monday, February 23, 2009 11:11 PM
I'M DONE WITH THE NEW NIGHT HIKE PROPOSAL!WAHAHAHAHAHA.Thank you Diana for helping! whee!~Whether it's gonna be accepted, it's a totally different story then.But still, that's good news.Bad news is that, I'm gonna wake up at around 4.30am tomorrow to mug my ass off for chemistry yet again. So I had better go grab my precious sleep now. Or I'll end up like a double eyebag panda tomorrow. How bad is that.CT CT CT! It's coming. HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME!Labels: the fairyland
on Sunday, February 22, 2009 12:52 PM
HAPPY THINKING DAY 2009!I was just reading the posts on the Guides Blog and all the past posts.
Just thought about how much we have been through ever since Sec 1.I never have ever thought of joining UG because I hated my CCA in primary school.It was really really bad when I got posted to Guides. I felt that it was freaking unfair that my choices were limited because of Higher Chinese.There were about 10 of us coming in together and I remembered that Jesslyn was the first senior who approached me.It was also after March camp then I really started to gain an interest in Guides, and I understood how Mrs Tiu told me that this CCA was something really going to be different.Indeed, I worked my way up. That was then I knew Lifang and Shikin whom I sticked even till now. You could say I was pretty involved overall. Lifang and me started aiming for the bronze, that we had already attained. And by sec 2 end, we both got the PS position.During the period of sec 2 and 3, I really looked forward to Guides meeting. I loved footdrill. I loved everything that we did during the meeting. I loved all the seniors. So much so that I would stay back in school every friday till late. Attaining the PL position with lifang in sec 3, we were more committed in Guides due to tasks that were handed down to us. Of course, working with Shikin was real fun, cos there were so many opportunities for us to learn and play. I also really really want to thank lifang for sticking with me even though I changed a lot in Sec 3.And Shikin for the constant support.Now that in sec 4, the only wish is that I really really want to step down now.But, I will remember, I have to support my CL and ACL till the end because every difficulty and challenge should be faced together.So together, we will overcome any obstacles. There should be nothing that we should be afraid of. No reason why we should be looked down by others. No reason why we should submit to them. No reason why we should be giving in to them.Though we are small, we can be strong! We'll show you.Guides all the way! :DLabels: together, we can change our world
on Friday, February 20, 2009 10:27 PM
Friday ended on a really bad note.I was right to say that I almost couldn't pull through today.Woke up at 4.50am just to study for chem. The terror began after school. Which I dun think I would wish to elaborate much on it.Maybe I appeared childish, but, it's just affecting me that much.Planning a hike had never been more than difficult.Everything used to be short, simple and sweet.Now, it's so complex, so complicated, so full of conflicts.Then what's the point?I used to enjoy night hike so much.But now, I feel like just giving up everything.It spells anything but FUN to me.I broke down. I cried. I was just simply helpless.Yeah, maybe it seemed ridiculous how these pieces of papers could just bring me down.But it just did.I dunno what to do anymore. I'm so tired. It's a chore. All I know is that I totally hated this week.And you dun treat me like I'm someone for you to vent your anger on.So what if you're older, so what if you're more experienced.I dun have the mood, neither do I want to waste my time on you.So get a life, and move on.I explained myself. You chose not to accept the answer, then so be it!What can you expect me to do when I really didn't know.Come on, things don't work this way.Anyway, on a happier tone,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDA! <3Labels: there's a limit to everything
on Thursday, February 19, 2009 11:05 PM
I had barely enough energy to pull through today.I thought I wun get to live till tomorrow morning.I assumed that I wouldn't even get to sleep.I'M STUCK WITH MAP READING. THE NIGHT HIKE IS KILLING ME.
MY MIND IS WALKING IN CIRCLES AROUND THAT THICK THICK STREET DIRECTORY.
AND PRAY... THAT I WON'T GET SCOLDED TOMORROW.
I'VE GOT THINKING DAY CELEBRATION TOMORROW IN SCHOOL. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, SHERMIN SEE. DUN GET NERVOUS OR WHATEVER AND START SAYING SOMETHING WRONG. YOU ARE SO GONNA GET KILLED.
I HAVEN DONE ANY STUDYING TODAY. JUST FOR THE REASON THAT I REACHED HOME AT NINE, I BARELY HAD ENOUGH PATIENCE TO GO THROUGH THE NIGHT WALK, SO HEY. GIMME A BREAK.
BUT NO. THERE ARE LIKE 2 TESTS TOMORROW. WHICH I'M NO WAY NEAR READY. SO KILL ME RIGHT NOW.
I NEEDA WAKE UP AT 5AM TOMORROW SO THAT I CAN AT LEAST STUDY A LITTLE. AND THEN I'LL GO TO SCHOOL WITH MANY MANY THINGS.
THEN THEN, THERE'S CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT MEETING TOMORROW AFTERNOON. AND CHIEN NEE HAS MATHS REMEDIAL! NOOOO! NOW I NEEDA PREPARE MY PROPOSALS.
I'M NOT MYSELF ANYMORE.
I'VE GOT NO MORE ENERGY. NO MORE STRENGTH. TOO TIRED TO CARRY ON.
BUT THERE'S NO CHOICE BUT TO KEEP PULLING MYSELF THROUGH IT.
IT'S NOT ONLY ME. IT'S EVERYONE. Labels: put it in
on Wednesday, February 18, 2009 10:23 PM
I think I'm draining myself dry.Not so bad to an extent that I'm dying yet,But I feel so lazy in caring about anything else.Before something else happens,
and someone starts
to hate me because of whatever reason,
I've to
clarify it. Posting it here may make me feel a
little more better. Rather
than keeping it to myself.
But hey,
I'm not doing anything wrong. Just
felt that... Maybe you deserved one more chance, and a warning would just be
fine. But on the other hand. To many who would think about it, it's a big NO.
For the simple reason that, history may just repeat itself and I shall not
put someone's life at risk especiallywithin the school compound. Therefore, I'm
just going to do whatever I think is right.
I can't do anything if you
decide to hate me.
Hey TESTS! Here I come! "
:D " Labels: keep the heartbeat
on Tuesday, February 17, 2009 11:01 PM
It was hilarious this morning when Jiayan and I were feeling so nervous over that box! Heehee.Anyway, Ahgwee! Glad that you like it!♥♥♥Must keep it okay! Until you old. HAHAHAThere's things piling up now.CAMP CAMP CAMP! NIGHT HIKE NIGHT HIKE NIGHT HIKE!COMMON TEST COMMON TEST COMMON TEST!No failing! This is going nowhere.Boohoo.Labels: you got it
on Monday, February 16, 2009 10:32 PM
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY AHGWEE!Love ya!Present tomorrow!Sorry sorry D:But I hope you'll love it!♥♥♥If only you understand how irritating it gets.Labels: happy birthday
on Saturday, February 14, 2009 11:59 PM
Few more seconds till the end of today. So.HAPPY VALENTINE/FRIENDSHIP DAY! Whatever lah. Today's not the day for me so I dun have to care too much.Anyway, thanks to those who gave me presents yesterday!I'm sorry for not preparing any :(Anyway, English workshop today at Tampines library w Ahgwee, Jiayan, Jeo, and some guys from our class and people from other classes.Airport for Popeye and celebrate Ahgwee's birthday w Jy, Vivian, Diana, Rizwan & Daryl.Camwhored and stuff. It was funny cos the two guys were the jokers for the day. HAHAHA.Got loads of photos. But not now.Labels: happy valentine's
on Thursday, February 12, 2009 11:05 PM
Mixture of feelings.I'm not in supporting cont. for Speech Day.I'm feeling happy cos at least I don't have to spend hours standing in that hot sun when I can do something more productive.I'm feeling sad cos it's my last year already, and I want to feel that kind of satisfaction and sense of achievement after the event.D:Oh well well. Just my luck. Take it easy (:Miss Koh showed us a video in CME class today.I SWEAR that I will make a trip round the world before I die. And I can't wait till O levels are over.BECAUSE!Mummy and my aunt wants to go to Cambodia, but I can't go cos of O levels!Mummy and my aunt wants to go to Canada, but I can't go cos of O levels!Mummy and hong pheng and hong eng ah yi wants to go Zheng Zhou, Shanghai and Nanjing, but I can't go cos of O levels!!!Even Ah mah is going to China!And I already missed my chance of going USA. And when can I go Taiwan?!Hmph!~I'm now patiently waiting for my Malayisa fishing trip. HAHAHA.If they cancel it, I'll kill.Labels: so screwed
on Wednesday, February 11, 2009 5:01 PM
Read some posts from my archives. I really really miss EVERYTHING that happened in 2008.I have the urge to recollect everything that has happened in my childhood. Hahaha. Let you all in on some secrets and stories that maybe you all haven heard about before. Lol.When I was in Childcare,I remember Desiree who always bit us. I remember Philbert, who always took care of me and made friendship bands for me. I remember Daniel, whom I always played with.I remember Arica and Melissa, my childhood best friends.I remember Priscilla, the one who eats freaking slow.I remember Edrick, the one who I quarrelled with, go to school with.I remember Eunice, the one whom I always bullied, until her father came to lecture me.I remember Hui Min, the one whom I always bullied and made fun of.I remember Baxter, the very mischeivious guy.Then the guys would climb roofs, and then we played catching. I remember many many small kids who I played with. I remember all my teachers! I remember how I got punished and I had to stand in a corner when I was still young. I remember how I badly I did for Chinese Calligraphy in K2I remember how I was good in Chinese and always helped the other kids.I always yearned to join the Before After School Care group (P1 - P6)
I remember going around with Uncle Jason to pick up my friends if I had no school.
Next, I wanted to be in upper primary, cos:
I remember staying over at Teacher Caroline and Uncle Jason's house for up to one week!
I remember Teacher Caroline and Uncle Jason always bringing us to Pulau Ubin for cycling.
I remember Teacher Caroline and Uncle Jason bringing the 10 over of us to Jurong East Swimming Complex and then we will play there for like more than 6 hours?
I remember that we always went out for excursions without parent's permission.
I remember how we sneaked out to 7-11 to buy ice creams and stuff.
Yupp. That was how my life was throughout my 10 years in Playhouse.
I witnessed the transition of Playhouse to Cherie Hearts, from Teacher Caroline, to Teacher Irene and then Miss Regina.
But anyway...
I will consider if I will post anymore. HAHAHA.
I think I've got like many many things for people to laugh at.
Labels: you made me
on Tuesday, February 10, 2009 10:38 PM
Heehee. The previous post seems fun eh.Happy guessing. Cos you'll be a genius if you ever get what I was writing.I think... I wouldn't even have remembered whatever I typed in those ***Had total defence day thingy today.As usual, food rationing, fire drill. HOT HOT SUN.Assembly was dryyyy.Short post :DLabels: you guess
on Monday, February 9, 2009 10:41 PM
So ever pleased with myself.:DDDDDDDBut first, I enjoyed today's Chinese lesson. Hohoho.Cos I was laughing throughout the whole period.Laughing with Xiu Wen, laughing to myself, and laughing along with Jeovana.Till my face turned totally red. Like some retarded kid.Had a considerably big pile of homework for today.As usual, didn't stay back in school.Instead, went on a popular-shopping-spree with Ahgwee! (♥)Got my long-awaited 3M board, coloured files and more pens!Went home and started doing "spring cleaning".1) I put up my little sticky board;
2) I cleaned out everything in my drawer, wiped
it and arranged the things back.
3) I cleared my table. And my whole room was in a
mess by then.
4) I cleared out another chest of drawers and
sorted everything out.
5) I cleared out yet, ANOTHER drawer and placed
my accessories inside.
6) I finally packed everything.
Hohoho. And my room is now freaking neat.Super conducive environment for studying. :DI attempted ALL the chem papers. Though not completed. Hey! At least I tried. I wouldn't care last time!I'm so proud of myself.*applauds non-stop, gives myself a pat on the shoulder! Screams YAY!*PART 2*ahem ahem*
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So freaking irritating you know!
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* **** **** ** **** ********** **** *** *** *****
***!
It's just simply ********** alright!
Frankly speaking, *** *** **** ******** ** ** *
**** ** *** ***.
I don't give a damn about whatever ******* you
have,
But just kindly **** **** ***!
I have a wish: I wanna shoot you dead. Heh heh
heh.
You should have just looked at mummy's face when I told her this. HAHAHA.Labels: put me off
on Saturday, February 7, 2009 6:07 PM
Felt that I played badly for piano today.Not that I played the notes wrongly, just that the "feel" isn't there. It was though I was just hitting the notes. Sounded awful.Met up with Ahgwee and Jer at the library.Did E maths, A maths, Lit. Was productive cos I finished homework, instead of sleeping at home.Was not productive cos I didn't do my own revision.Saw Chin Ken and Chin Mian on the way to Popular.Then went to Parkway.Saw Yuli on the way to bustop.Sorry for not taking your flyer! Dui bu qi.I wanna go shopping!There are soooo many nice nice things out there that I wanna lay my hands on.Boohoo! :(I wanna work, get a pay and spend!I pray that O levels come and go as quickly as it can.May we just screw it all up then.Labels: ♥ Ahgwee
on Friday, February 6, 2009 10:01 PM
Lack of posts nowadays. Too tied down with work.Trying to complete homework, with 4E2 constantly asking for more. Not that it's a bad thing.Trying to complete lit project, it's time.Trying to complete those goals up there on the board. Empty promises are a no-no now.Trying to study for all those tests that are drying up my brain juices.Attempting to avoid everything else that are distracting me. Receiving that booklet, "the laws of O level", was freezing me up totally.Hohoho.As much as I am trying to concentrate in class,I realise that until the last period of the day, my thoughts will already be drifting all over the place. Especially when the subject involves thinking and calculation. Common test is coming oh-so-soon.No way am I that kind of prepared.I cannot wait till the day I graduate.Or the least is that I want is to step down from all the positions, and be a normal student in school now.It's tiring trying to suppress myself from being what I want to be, and who I want to be.It's not me.I'm waiting for the day my freedom arrives~And you know what!I dreamt that I collected my o level results. And I got freaking FANTASTIC results. The thing was that, not all my results for all my subjects were reflected. HAHAHA.And Shikin had to say that I'm gonna do badly. Tsk!And I finally, I MEAN FINALLY, passed A maths class test!Ohmygawd! Miracle ya know!It's been ages since I last saw a pass on my A maths papers.Though its a 25/50.But hey! Only 2 in Mr Low's class passed okay!iayou jiayou!Mugging date tomorrow!~ :D As Ahgwee said, we seem to have no life.But, its way better than sleeping my day off.Labels: so what
on Tuesday, February 3, 2009 9:38 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI JIE KOR!BIG KAYPO! =pSomehow, I find studying pretty fun now.But, I know that there are consequences for me to bear.I believe many are saying that I'm changing.
I wouldn't deny that, But what I can say now is that, I'm not sure if I'm feeling the o levels jittery or what,Just one thing I'm sure of is that I'm tired of handling relationships.It's just emotionally tiring for me.That's why I seem to be shuting myself out, becoming one of those anti social people who just sits there most of the time, stop hanging out with the usual clique... Just leaving myself out of everything that seems fun.I know I'm being pretty selfish. But I'm sorry. I guess this is the way adults want it to be.I really hate it when I'm being pressurized by everyone - parents, teachers, teach me or not.It's tiring. It makes me feel as though I'm gonna run each time. So, stop pressing me. I am really trying my best.I feel the difference in me. Don't expect me to change into a completely new person overnight.I was never once that hardworking kind, mugging my ass off like nothing.
But at least I'm trying yah?Don't use that kind of tactics that make me feel guilty, cos making me admit it won't really change a thing. Who knows, I may only become more demoralised.I'm thankful that at least mummy recognise my efforts now. At least the nagging is reduced.Labels: expect the change?
SHERMIN